Marissa's Choice

Whooo! God blessed me with not 1 but 2 job interviews this week.
Lately, things have been pretty bad for my family and I.When I say bad... I mean really bad, but its ok. I know things are going to work themselves out... [CORRECTION] God is working things out as He always does by putting things in order and opening doors & windows of opportunity.
To be honest, when things were going downhill I wanted to blame God like, "why and how did you let this happen? Why let it get this far!" But I could never bring myself to blame Him for anything. Especially when its something that I was given the choice to change. It feels like I'd be biting the hand that feeds me. I guess that why I stopped looking at current issues as a problem and more like a blessing in disguise. Having things go wrong got me off my butt and made me become active in my life.  I went from SAYING I want to do more to actually DOING more. God: "Marissa, All you had to do was get up and move your feet. I got you." Haha funny isn't He.
Anywho, as I see this is getting too long. I finished both interviews this week. I got one. Would it be too much to pray for the other? I hope not. I don't like feeling greedy, but I want to help my family. Im pretty sure He understands. anywho,  Thank you Jesus!

  It really bothers me when really nice guys turn jerk because of one girl. This one guy I know was sweet, modest, confident and had beautiful dreams for himself.
  However, this girl he went out with dumped him, got back together with him then cheated on him. Now he's an asshole to women (well, except me of course), he treats them the way his ex-girlfriend treated him. He gets with them, uses them and leave them. His confidence turned cockiness and his dreams... not so beautiful anymore. 
  He knows, not all women are the same because I show him that every time we hang out. The thing is he's not willing to risk it. 
Clearly, women do their fairshare of "dogging". Im pretty sure he'll eventually heal, find an amazing woman, have a daughter, be apologetic towards the women he wrong and be at peace. 

I am by no means saying that what he's doing is justifiable. No, two wrongs don't make a right, but can you blame him? One bad apple ruined it for the bunch.

I kinda suck at intros so im just going to jump into the story....

Have you ever read a post on someone's blog that left you so awestruck (not a word?...oh well). Like, you were completely smitten by them because their words mirrored you. Not in a good way though.

This guy's words reflected the inadequate side of me. Practically showed me the areas of my self I need to work on to be a better human.  Not that I'm a bad person or anything. More like I should make more of an attempt draw nearer to God.  In the end I found myself both attracted and convicted.
Eh...maybe this is just occurs to me.